I AM ALIVE.
My humongous eye bags should tell you a thing or two as to why I’ve been MIA. I finished my one month internship at the hospital on Friday and jumped right into the actual money making summer job at the coffeehouse. Been working all weekend and will be through Thursday, and THEN - prepare yourselves - I HAVE FIVE DAYS OFF UNTIL Wednesday. Granted, that’s just because in the last two September weeks, two of my colleagues are on holiday and I will be covering for them, so I’m using up all my off days now because I won’t get any later. But still, I’m so excited for my mini vacation! There’s a ton of things I need to do: get a new passport, go to the hairdresser, get my uni books for next year, make doctor’s appointments, clean my room etc.
I haven’t been hitting the gym as regularly as usual, because I’m usually wiped out after work. But I’m not too bothered about it, I think eight hours of waitressing counts as a pretttttty good workout. Excited to hit the weights again anyway! I do miss the iron when I’ve been away for too long (what a douchey thing to say but it’s the truth!)
Amidst all the working non-stop, I’ve been feeling a bit lonely lately. I work all day, get home and watch ‘Shameless’ and go right to sleep. I talk to my work colleagues during the day, but it’s really just smalltalk, I don’t get to see my friends and family very often, and when I do I feel slightly disconnected? It’s weird. I had a pretty rough afternoon/night on Friday, when I was just feeling really overwhelmed with the workload and had a mini anxiety attack (ft. somatic symptoms such as racing heart, trouble breathing, all that nasty stuff).
I’m planning lots of soul-soothing, socializing activities for my days off because it seems like I’m caving in quickly otherwise!